Upsetting times

I know that life won't always be at the top or were I want it to be, but right now I feel like my life or the way i think hasn't changed from when I was in my home town. And some of the people I really care about and try to get close kinda driffted away and I know some of then will say it's my boyfriend's falt but idk everyone just kinda has there own lives and mine just don't fit in with theirs so I just go with the flow, I'm almost done with highschool and I'm so over that "teanage" phase with my life. I'm just going to laugh at the teens who sit around me going threw their lived apart from mine. I hate being upset but It's normal I understand it's natural, but sometimes I just want to be tottaly apathetic and not emotional twords anything which is the hardist thing to do as a girl, but I'll try I'm tired of people getting the best of me and worring about everyone else. I want to be alone for the rest of my life in a little house with my Dingos Digarido in Australia in the outback so I can be away from civilization and lear about animals. But I know I want to be a teacher but I also want to studie music and be a Photographer which wouldn't be hard if I lived in Australia But I'm gettin goff topic as of right now I'm tired of the world and don't want to go back to school monday I wish it was the first 2 days of school when I didn't know anyone that was the best ever! well c ya till next time.

How Much I left behind

When I go on Myspace and see all the people I once talk to. It makes me realize how much better off I am. I'm not saying I'm better then anyone, but at least I think about my future and were I'm going and not just tomorrow. Since I moved 7 months ago I've changed into something so much better then what I was before. I can't stand to think that I once was like that and hung out with those people that didn't care but I cared about. But when I go back every once a month I realize how many people are actually my friends or actually wanted to be around me. But if I went back to leave I would tell everyone that I didn't care about them and that I wouldn't prefer them not to talk to me. Why? 1. I don't need people around me that are going to drag me down or pull me away from what truly matters. 2. If they didn't care about when I left they shouldn't care when I came back, unless your going to remember me when I'm gone then don't remember me when I'm near. I've IMed Texted, messaged, wrote comments, anything you can think of to stay contact with those people but it just shows how much they want to work to keep my friendship and it shows how much they "thought" about my friendship. So I rather drop them then Carry them I don't need weight of the people that don't matter I'm better off without them and I completely see that now. :]

People?

Why is it that the people you care about the most
always end up leaving or being rude to each other
I don't want to make it sound like I'm the best or the world revolves around me, because it doesn't. But I'm the root of our friendship and it's like they just can't get along...it's really annoying. I'm the kind of person that will make sure my friends are happy, but I will never let them be rude to me that just doesn't work, but when they start being messed up to each other then what are you suppose to do. Fist I avoided them then they said it got better now its like before...
My birthday is coming up, March 19th, and they both are coming and I want them to have fun! I want this birthday to actually be GOOD! All my past once have sucked! my 12th birthday was amazing it was me and 3 other friends and we went to an art fair we got drawn went out to eat and made cake it was amazing.....this year I want to take 4 new friends to the beach. Goal: see the sun set and rise, Bonfire with marshmallows, go in the water at night. We can't do that though if people can't stand each other or can't get along. If I have to leave some one behind then I will..I'll just go pick up Yali from Orlando she gets along with everyone!

So yeah?

I've been very happy lately getting out of the house and actually having fun!
I got my Duelenroment application that I'm going to wait till I get to Orlando to fill out or when my sister has time. This weekend I'm going to my 1st meeting for my trip to Australia and the last time I checked its in 136 days :D! I've already started planning my birthday which is on the 19th of March turning 17 YAY! last year to do what ever i want get in trouble and not have it on my permanent record :D
I'm going to the beach for the weekend with 4 friends and yes we are having a chaperon :] but she is an awesome lady! I want to jump in the ocean naked and have a bonfire on the beach, My Boyfriend is coming so I want to walk with him while the sun is setting so I think I'm going to go to the west cost so every night I can see it set. but I want to also see it rise :/ so I'm stuck between it but I can't wait.
I started early so all my friends can go and save up money and talk to their patents so there is no problem like last year when i went to Universal.
But yeah I'm doing great how about you?

Going to School ....

Well I love school not because I'm a major geek or anything like that. It's because I love learning and seeing my friends it makes it fun. But It feels so routine. I want exitment in school like change it up a little makes people actually want to be there. I know when I'm a teacher my days wont be boring, but wont work like that. What abouty your school days did you have fun or do you think there could have been so much more?

Being Used?

Have you ever had a fear of being used by the one you care about? Well I know I've been used once or twice but this is the first time It hurt so bad...I'm not going to get in details. Why do people have to be so crule to use people and just not care? I don't undertand I can't just use people cause I still go by the saying "Don't do to Others what you don't want done to you" and I live heavily by that. But anyways Using people is wrong and I hope anyone that reads this doesn't do stuff like that.

Movies Tonight

So I'm going to watch "Avatar" I keep hearing it's good but we aren't going to watch it in 3D. Me and my Boyfriend Steven aren't going to watch it in 3D. I hope it's good. Have you seen it?? Well I hope it's good I hate when they have like awesome special affects and the trailers all claim it to be AMAZING and then it tottaly sucks! Has the ever happen to you. Like I watched The Princess and the Frog and the trailers weren't that good but I love the movie!! OR the Bling Side that was an Awesome movie! But yeah to the Avatar then we are going out to eat at like "C Jays" or something
Edited!
We didn't want Avatar but we watched book of Ile
IT was amazing I loved the message and how it ended I wont spoil it for you but it truly is an amazing movie I say you go see it!

Trip to Australia

So I'm going on a trip to Australia with a program called People to People. Well I'm leaving in 148 days, and I truly can't wait. I have loved that countenet since I was 12. I've made a timer just cause I'm so happy. But yeah This program takes like thousands of children across the country every year. To different country's if you have a child or if you thinking about going some were look it up. But I'm so exited i can't wait it's going to be amazing.


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Welcome

This is my Blog were I will post everything. Some Subjects will be like; School, Family, Boyfriends or Girlfriends, Things I love or hate, just everything. I will be 17 as of March 19. I wanted to make a blog so I can put stuff that I think down some were so in a couple of years I'll be like....I remeber that. But yeah follow me and I'll follow you.

Things I like: Fairies, The Nightmare Before Chirstmas,Jesus ,Felines, Hugs, The Beauty and the Beast, Music all kinds, The Bass guitar, Photography, Kids; but I would never have any, Pillows,My cat momo [see right] The color gray, My phone, Bell bottomes, Messanger bags, Black lights, Myspace, insence, Shel Silversein, Poems, School, My computer, sarcasum, Reading, Warriors by Erin Hunter, Guardians of Ga'hoole by Kathryn Lasky. and some other stuff

Things I dislike: Pink, Twilight [sorry to those lovers not my cup of tea], narrow-mindedness, racesim, stereotypes, statistics, I don't dislike alot of stuff.